Unsaid words

Of my years fifteen plus ten
these 2 won't come again
As i walk and cry in the rain
Hiding tears that start to drain
Repenting my mealncholiness,tears well up in my eye
I try to think hard ,but still can't justify ...

Justify what ,I just think a lotCry for what?
emotions beginning to rot

Can't blame you for raking them up again
As you entrap my thoughts as I walk in the rain

You are too good, too good to inflict any pain
It is just my foolish alter ego that makes me feign

Feign what..a stupid thought arising in my heart's alcove
A self-belief that you can't make me fall in love

But you prove me wrong everytime I go in a pensive mood
I just wonder you being nice,I am just too rude

Please don't think I don't want to reciprocate
the heart just wants to do it,the mind equivocates

I have lost it before, can't afford to lose it now
Why don't you give it a try,heart and mind at row

It is just I am a man of few words who can't just say
I want you to understand ..for me its no child's play
Alas!! my mind and heart yet agin, at fray

I am still waiting for that lucky day
When I just won't look down ,i'll look in your eye

I wil prove to you, I am not rude nor I am shy
Wait for the day when my eye meets you eye
And that day would the last day when I would cry........